Saturday Slursss

Someone's just real excited about Chinese New Year...

*ME*

Can you blame me? I spent 4 years of it not only in a foreign country, but practically no one really cared. ):

Friday Feels

Last night, a close friend and business partner of mine shared the story of a former classmate who lived in so much joy despite the circumstances in his life. 

She related the story on how moving from an International school to a government school was possibly one of the best gifts she's ever gotten and when I asked about this amazing individual who changed her life, I was shocked to learn that not only did he move to Ipoh to be with his grandmother, but that he had also lost his life to kidney problems. 

My heart broke last night.

I hope we all take something from this video and the lessons from how Chee Hang led his life with so much vibrance and resilience. 

Thursday Thoughts

Just a Thursday thought that I've been pondering upon beginning two nights ago. 

Have a fantabulous Thursday, everyone!

Flying Solo Wednesday

Manual Tuesday

I think from now on, I'm gonna have to do this manually.
Until I figure out a solution with the Blogger app on my phone...

Last year, I posted photos of the baby chameleons on this blog, and well, I'd like to do so again today! 

Not sure if the Tangled movie had something to do with it...

Love,

Kim

Monday

Routines take the best of us, it teaches us to take many things for granted. Like the devil atop our shoulder, it gets the best of us and often times takes over. It is disapproving of being appreciative, and does not allow for us to turn a short gaze towards the small things in life.
Perhaps it is time we re-evaluate our routine if we've the Monday Blues..?

Blogger Woes: Test Test, Does This Thing Work?!

Okay, so many of you must be thinking "Dafuq dis bitch, where her daily posts be?"

Yes yes, I know ):

This is a shit excuse but usually I post these broadcasts in the morning. And for the last two weeks (since getting my new phone) has been trying to do so via the Blogger app. But for some reason, when I try to upload my post, Blogger "HAS UNEXPECTEDLY STOPPED". Friggin.

Every single time. So now I'm still on a hunt for the reason.

Meanwhile, please bare with me and feast your eyes on the days I've missed :(

Clearly there's more than one problem at play here. Haha

Check in with you guys as soon as I can! Thank you in advance for being patient with me!

Love,

Kim

Tuesday Apologies

Hey guys!

You might be wondering why the daily broadcasts have not been posted here :(
I wonder the same too actually...

The broadcasts still go out on a daily basis but for some reason, Blogger does not work on my new phone :( I can't seem to be able to publish the posts after typing them up.
I'm still yet to understand why this all happens.
Meanwhile, please bare with me while I sort this whole thing out.

So after painstakingly trying to figure out how this all works, are the broadcasts from the last few days..

At the same time, I am also working on some other stuff that is also taking up a big chunk of my time, reducing the amount of time I'm actually able to spend on this already empty blog. But no worries, I'll make sure to definitely check back in here as much as I can, and to update on things :)

So here're a few photos of my most recent weekend with my extra special family, aka major support system outside my home :)

The weekend has been rewarding to say the least. After running like crazy, the weekend came as a reward, full of smiles, painful feet (from wearing heels for an extended period of time), and a good day's rest. The company that I kept as well was just the cherry on top. So much love, so much support, so much laughter to start the week :) 

Monday was also another amazing day of support, encouragement, that I couldn't have asked for a better way to kick off my week! Thus, inspiring my broadcast for the next day

Here's Tuesday's broadcast:

Have a good one!

PS- Will still do my best to check back in as much as I can. 

Love,

Kim

Thursday

Here's the real epic video!

Wednesday

We are responsible for our own future. But why are we taking it so lightly?

Tuesday

Monday!

For change is simple. But not easy.

Saturday Ice Cream

Because I just love ice cream from these places.

TGIF!

A brief history of the world famous chain :)

Thursday & A Birthday

Another day of struggling to get out of bed..

And on a side note, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIK NAWWAR!! 

I love you long long time! ;) 

seems like we only meet on Skype.
Not cool yo.

Love,

Kim

Wednesday

Short but sweet. Something that is getting me to move forward.

Tuesday

Monday Broadcast

I apologize in advance if there are any grammar mistakes/typos. They're definitely bound to happen. Checkin for these mistakes on a tiny screen will miss me a few :(

I think tomorrow onwards, I'll try to keep the message within one screenshot. Anything extra should at least be another full screenshot. What do you think?

Sundays Excluded!

If you know me, you'd know that I'm an avid believer in constantly improving myself. So, what better way to learn and share that with the world?

Thus, I think around mid November, I started a broadcast, telling people either a new fact, or sharing a quote/thought for the day. Monday to Saturday, I send out these messages.

So how about this, instead of having to constantly update my blog, since I know I cannot do this on a daily basis, I'll just send a screenshot of the message, here!

Sounds like a decent trade off for now, no?

Frankly, I'm a bit sad because I really wish I could include a drawing of whatever it is that I wrote about, but my phone is pretty old and cannot really accommodate that, and it isn't usually till the morning that I know for sure what it is that I wanna talk about. (So, I'd have a few ideas before going to bed, but would only be sure of the topic of my choice when I'm facing my phone in the morning). But eitherway, I'm figuring out ways to actually make that happen. But one thing at a time la I guess? :)

Alright. Recap: 

• I will post my daily broadcasts here in the form of a screenshot. 
• I am in the process of adding illustrations, but just need to figure out how. 

Sidenote reminder: This is excluded on Sundays. My off day! Haha. 
PS- suggestions are more than welcome

Love,
Kim

Another Year, Another Chapter

Hello everyone!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 

Allow me to take this time to apologize for the lack of posts. I am slacking in this whole blogging thing and yeah, I DEFINITELY need to bark up. I do apologize, I really do. The last few months have been madness at its core. There have been as many heartwarming instances as there were crushing ones. But if you were to ask me, I’d like to think that these were the things that have made 2014 a rather eventful year. One filled with lots of stories to tell and experiences to take with me. 

If I were to list everything here, I think this post would be so long that you'd eventually tire out and not read halfway through. But here are some of the high(low)lights of the year of 2014 that I think made the cut. The rest, perhaps in due time, shall be revealed.

1. I realized, after working 6 months at a small publication company, that a 9-5 desk job is MOST DEFINITELY NOT my cup of tea. I'm generally a really healthy person, it takes A LOT for me to get sick, the only thing I'm pretty prone to are migraines and even then, they only hit when I am under severe accumulation of stress of when I drink coffee at night and sleep right after. However, when I was working for the company, I would take so many Medical Leaves that I felt bad for even falling sick. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed my job as a writer! Going to events, meeting some really cool individuals, and having all the free food, who could ask for more? But that was only when I was sent out to cover events. When I wasn't, I would actually be sitting at my desk, in a room that seems to be caving in every time I step into it. Claustrophobic almost, with the tight setting of the furniture, industrial lights, and air conditioners at full blast, I'm surprised my (now former) colleagues could even work in that environment. What was worse, was that when I was in an accident that almost took my life, all my boss could think about was the tickets to the event the next day, stating that he "never thought it was a big deal". Hmm. To this, maybe many of you might say "this is life, Kim. Deal with it". Agreed. Couldn't agree more. It also got me thinking: people make up society. Humans created the rules and boundaries that are ultimately what we now know to be the "realities" of life, no? Either way, that, and my health was a good enough reason for me to no longer want to stay.

2. Death and marriages. So... Many.
2014 was a year of many passings. One that hit pretty hard was actually the demise of a family friend, with whom in a short period of time I reconnected upon her return to Malaysia. I would have many inspirational conversations with her about life, people, and ideas that surround us on a daily basis. She was a very kind, caring, understanding woman who never used her illnesses as an excuse for anything. She was a tenacious woman who fought through many health battles and still would take the time and efforts to make sure that the person she interacts with is happy. She was actually the link to my first ever job, and to which I am forever grateful. Sadly, despite her strong will to live, her life came to an abrupt end. I still remember the last time I saw her. I was out covering an event for work, but that evening, I was determined to go see her at the hospital. You see, she had suffered a stroke, and was in a coma. The news came to my family while we were celebrating Chinese New Year. (I remember losing my appetite the moment we received the news) So there I was, at work, sipping on wine, but coming to a firm decision to see her before the next day. So a little before midnight, I dropped by the hospital, clad in my dress and make up, I went to her hospital bed to talk to her. After pleading and promising the nurses that I'd be really quiet and considerate of the other patients, I was allowed to see her. Before my visit, I had read that hand massages would help relief stroke patients of the discomfort/pain. So I did just that, while talking to her, I massaged her palms. By the time I was done, it was rather late, and I had to go back to rest for the next day's work. So I left a note for her family and headed home. The next morning, my family got the news of her passing in the wee hours of the morning. It was 2 days before Valentine's Day.
On the flip side though, it's rather eye-opening to see people who used to prance around in turquoise pinafores, saying their I-Do's and starting (or even expanding) their families. Posts of their registration, their pre-wedding shoot, their special day, and when they seal their kisses. Then there's me. Sitting in front of my overpriced laptop, thinking to myself how I would use the money to see the rest of the world, meet all the people, and eat all the food I can. Did I mention? Candy! Mmm. But flowers though.. Oh man. Digressing, sorry. But yeah, I guess I've arrived at the age where people all get married and start a family. I never quite expected all this, but witnessing all this from social media is quite a sight. Leaves me in awe at how all of us are so different.

3. The idea of taking care of others still elude me:
2014 was a year of heartbreaks. Haha. Yes. Whether it's romantically, or even just friendships. It is safe to say that I've lost a few more people in my life. Robin Williams once talked about holding on to that bit of madness that we have. Because it is that madness that keeps us alive. I am not shy to admit that I am indeed insane. As a kid, I've acknowledged the fact that I'm different. Now as an adult, I flaunt it. And often times, people don't understand it. Or perhaps, I am so lost in my own insanity that I don't understand others. Lost, because sometimes even my own reasoning confuses me. And perhaps, in that sense, people lose interest or turn away from it, or me. My questionable personality is enough to raise eyebrows. But as insane as I am, I have heart too. When I feel for a person, I am willing to give that person nothing but my best. Last year, I learnt the hard way that that is really stupid. One of them was a guy who despite being another continent away, would support me through my challenges and who surprised me over the pixels on a Skype video call. He made me feel pretty safe emotionally when I didn't know how to overcome my fears of being in a country where I didn't even speak the language. But overtime, my insane personality, paired with my overwhelming sense of wanting to care for him eventually led things to end.
Then, there was a friend who could no longer deal with me. Though this, I would say, was a lot on my part. Long story short, I disregarded how she may feel in the long run of me hiding something that I knew would hurt her one way or another. She held a really special place in my heart. But unfortunately for me, not too long after the aforementioned guy ended things with me, so did she. And funnily enough, losing her was more heartbreaking than losing him.

4. With that said, not too long ago, I again let myself fall for a complete stranger, only to be disappointed with another heartbreak. Hehe. I can smile about it now because maybe it no longer affects me as much as it did. But really, this one also took a huge toll on myself. Went through a huge revamp before, during, and after meeting this one. It's okay. Process it. Before this dude, I was absolutely set on just being me. Doing my own thing, and this would just pass as a short term thing, with an expiration date. But the more time I spent with this dude, the more I wanted different things. I started becoming comfortable with him, sharing many interests and ideas, I was seeing an almost exact reflection of myself in him. While wanting to continue to grow with this person, I quickly sought ways to push this person, because I wanted someone who could keep up with me. Then, as quickly as it grew, it dissipated. Fizzed out, like a bottle of Coca-Cola. Not sure about him, but since then, things were not going too great. I began affecting those around me. Those who genuinely cared about me had to sit through my crying and discussions of him. Even worse still, having let all the heart ache affect me, I carried it with me like a heavy burden, and letting it out on the same people who were listening and caring for me. That's when I realized how bad it was hurting them, that I took time away for myself to deal with my own feelings. The break from everything else was wonderful. But frankly, in the last week of 2014, I spent a lot of time thinking about him. Often times, thoughts of him would show up when I sleep and if I were to be honest, I spent NYE wishing that he would make an appearance. Ha, wishful thinking am I right? The New Year actually began for me, on a not so sweet note. But never mind that right? There's only one way to go...

Up, up, up, and away! :) 

Happy New Year once again. If you've made it to the end of the post, I'd like to thank you for reading this far. For absorbing all this information about my life that may or may not have any impact on your thoughts/ life. Nonetheless, thank you for reading. I am most determined to fill this blog once again with my posts. There's more to where that came from so do check back in once in a while! :)


Lots of love,
Kim

Oh, my hair is black again. I've mixed feelings about this.