What If

If what ifs ruled the world, I think I would be dead just figuring out so many things, hoping and praying.

What if.

Urgh. What if I was nicer? What if I said this instead of that, what if I put this number in or what if I walked this way or that way.

Awful awful awful.

* what if I walked slower, would you have caught up with me? would you have said things you never could? would you do what I've always hoped and wished you would, every time I see you? what if I gave you a second chance? would we be the same or would you be you again? the way you were, the way you drove me away?*