When September Ends

Like the 1st of August, today is the day that lots of people were born.
These people include (in no particular order):

Nozomi Yamaki, the one who knows how to make a statement.

Aqil Borhan, Mister Hitz.fm

Jahmile Torrejon. The Multi Talent.

Hideko Piplani. The one who took a leap despite her fear of heights.

Fiona Lee. The one who grew so much.

Clement Yong. Mister I've not seen in forever.

Yuki Motomura. Haha super awesome photo cause this is not like him at all. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU GUYS!!

Burned Lips

I was tagged on a photo recently.

Something I deeply appreciate.

My heritage.

My love.

My life.

My Grandmother.

It is amazing just how fast time has passed us by. It's been over a month since she left us and her memory lives on. Her life, her legacy. 

I never mentioned this the last time but I was amazed at just how many people showed up at her funeral to pay respect to her. People who I've never even met came two days in a row. 

I love and miss her dearly and this photo of her made my love for her and my family run deeper than a fast flowing river. 

On another note, I think that the earth is working some sort of magic. This week has been a renewal of stuff. I kinda like what it's bringing me but I will strive to make things better. Time for more cosmic power. 

Went to the beach yesterday with a few people for dinner. Watched the sunset and took some time off from the insanity. Specially in a terrifyingly HOT day like yesterday. Some photos...

Miss Canada

SOKA 

Miss Driver

* if this is your idea of a war, you just put me in a position I never even asked for and don't even wanna be in.  so why don't you just bring it elsewhere. KAY. thanks. *

Unpredictable

My eyes are burning bright red, the eye bags are showing....

I've never felt this way in a rather long time.

My heart is filled with a huge gap that I can no longer hide.

Life is so unpredictable. Within a blink of an eye, your world you know changes forever.

I dedicate this post to my dear friend,

Mark Seow.

A friend I've known for many years and one I hold dear to my heart.

All I can say is that life is too short and we're walking on a thin wire. 

Today was not one of my favorite days but it is a day where I know I've learned a lot more about life and to treasure everyone surrounding us. Specially those we call family. Because we never know when the plugs on their lives will be pulled. 

I think I will just leave it as that. 

My deepest condolences to the Seow family. 

Jumping Jacks.

It has been my dream, for a very long time...

To own one of these babies...

Aren't they a marvel to look at? Well, least for me they are. :)

I was fortunate enough to pick it up when I was 14 but had to stop due to expensive fees in the school near my place. And now that I have another shot at learning it, I wanna do as much as I can and just go crazy :)

I am very excited. 

And speaking of excitement, swimming starts tomorrow and I found out today that I failed passed my exam! The one exam I've been DYING to know that results of! :) YESSS :)

I am indeed very happy. :) All this could not have happened without my parents' support. Without them, I would've stared at the screen with a BLANK look on my face. But thank you mom and dad. :) You guys are WONDERFUL people for giving me the opportunity to do something so amazing! :) 

THANK YOU :)

So yes, I am jumping with joy. :) 

-edit-

This is dedicated to my last post! How cool. Found this a while back too! :)

Everything Happens For A Reason

OMG.

I dunno if I should be happy, sad, angry or nervous that this happened.

I guess over the semester, I will be able to know..?

HMM.

Like Brand New

No matter how much we want to "start" again, there will always be incidents and past problems that stay with us, like battle scars from wounds. However, it does not mean we cannot step forth and take control.
So what if those scars look hideous and scare people away?

Who cares?

If we let go and fly, we will see the light at the end of the tunnel. If we put in all we can to better things in our lives, I'm positive we'll find a way around it.

If we keep running away from the problem, another will come. If we keep dodging the problems, instead of confronting them, it will all add up and become a MAJOR problem in our lives. Bringing us to a dead end. Then what? You can't run, neither can you hide.

I think, this is something we all need to learn and deal with. No one ever said life is a bed of roses. (I bet you've heard this so many times, it makes your ears wanna bleed) but hey, time to do what we're all made to do, push through it and fight it. :)

* One day, a little boy saw a butterfly struggling it's way out of the coccoon, so he pulled open the coccoon to set it free, but then the butterfly flew out and fell to it's death. In the end, it becomes your loss if you don't pull through this on your own *

-edit-

Every Sunday is Post Secret Sunday. And this was there. Here is to everyone. Including myself.

Flowers Bloom

You know how one minute you feel like you're done with whatever (hanging onto the past) and the other you just fall right back?

That's how I'm feeling right now and it's not a very pleasant feeling.

I've been like this for a while now. One day it feels super wonderful then the other just burns like a bitch on the inside. Not nice. :(
HMPH.

But I'm pushing through this but it is not the easiest thing out there to do.

So to those of you who are kinda like me, hang in there!! :)

You can do thisss :)

Share Clean Water

Hey you guys.

So I've decided to cut my hair like

THIS

if you guys help me reach $300! I am currently at $95 so please donate and help me raise $300 for people who NEED clean water!


Click HERE to Donate!

Thank you! :)

Deep Down...

You know in movies when the bad guys is coming in for the kill and the good guy goes... *something something..* deep down, in your heart, you're a nice person yadayada?
Yeah..? No..? Oh okay then...

Hmm I watch too much movies then. But well. I just wanted to have the title as it is and so I thought I'd start with it. But nevermind. My Monday has been pretty busy. I've finally submitted my job application and am now just going to wait for a response. :) I've gotten some financial aid sorted out but I am still yet to hit the supermarket. OMG. I am in dire need to go to the supermarket! I have some really important necessities that I need like notebooks! (ESPECIALLY NOTEBOOKS) BUT NOOOOOO something HAS to come up, stopping me from going there. -.- SERIOUSLY?? Horrible horrible news.



How long can I last on a 90% empty bottle of cleanserrrr..? :(



SIGH.



This is a rant post.


Before I go, ask yourself this question and maybe share the answer with a friend or two:

"Would I (that is youu) point my fingers at someone else for something I did to hurt them..? Why?"

Many of us are so unconscious about how we act towards others when it is not their fault, making the opposite side believe that they're guilty when really they aren't. Yes, it is easy hard to admit our faults but if you just do it, there really isn't any harm in it. JUST, let, it, go and stop making up things just cause you don't feel comfortable with that person. Be honest with that person cause otherwise it's really unpleasant.

The Raw Form

I had a real good laugh today.

I had to struggle to pick myself up from laughing rolling on the floor. After almost an hour of wrecking our brains to put up the white drapes, Martha and I decided to sit down and listen to some good old songs. Vintage stuff from the 90's. Mariah Carey and all that. She even showed me some Compton songs. Hmm.
For those of you who don't know what Compton is, it is; in a nutshell the GHETTO of California (or Southern California). This place is the birth place of super vulgar raps and hip hop. The type of stuff that the Malaysian government bans.

ANYWAY
Back to the story...
Somehow the night ended with her and stuff she came up for Drag Ball.
Wow, can't believe I'm alerady so super stoked for Drag Ball. This is kinda funkyyyy.
Drag Ball is when guys dress up as girls and vice versa. DUDE it is so fun. REALLY :)

Moving on...
So I've cleared out more boxes and some old clothes from my closet. No wonder I had so many boxes. So much junk that CAN'T even be used anymore. Old clothes, faded colors and all.

Also, I've done my laundry and I know what I need and don't need to get. I realized that it is possible to get stuff done with limited space and whatevers.
And I am yet to unpack one more luggage of clothes, clear up some of the other stuff from the boxes, fold the boxes up and I am good to go! :)

Also, I've put up some pink drapes over my window and my door, so my room is gonna be rather pink :)
Makes Kim a super happy person :) Even if it's temporary.
Hmm yes.

Time to go. Lot's of catching up to do.
Did I tell you that spanish killed me? :(
SIGH akibat tak ulangkaji.

I Think That Possibly...

...Maybe I'm falling for you.

I am absolutely addicted to this song.
It's just playing on repeat in my head.

Mainly because I can't find my iTouch and I don't have my computer (instead I have a loaner that can't play youtube videos or ANYTHING) omg die. -.-

Plus I have some wonderful earphones just SITTING there cause there's no reason for me to use it. Or more like, I can't even use it. SIGH.

I ran quite a fair bit of errands and am rather tired. I think tonight will be a good night. I'll get the sleep I need, get up earlier to read up on my Physics for homework. Sounds like fun eyh?

Yes, welcome back to Soka life.

* i love the way you make me grin from ear to ear *

Voluntarily Stretched Grin

I went to bed at 7am this morning.

Sucky much?

This jet lag thing is nasty.

I've seen quite a fair bit of people since my return to SUA.
And I have moved my furniture about twice today. All in ONE day. -.-

Bit too much laa. Okay. So furniture sounds so little when you break it down to table, closet, bed and this stand thing. OMG it's a lot -.-

And plus its SO INSANELY HEAVY.

What broke my heart was seeing Sam Sam's arm. :( It got burned by the coffee filter. :( OMG. Looks awfully painful. SHIT. :(

SIGH.

OH I had White Coffee tonight. :) bad move judging by how much I need to SLEEP helloooo -.-
But it was yumsss :) OM NOM and I bought Twix. Thus, explanation for my gemuk-ness -.- I hatee.

Hmm. Cleared out quite some boxes :) I am kinda proud of myself :)
Now I just need to figure out how to keep my clothes into my closet HMM.
I have too many boxes. I was shocked when I took everything out  of storage.

Kinda like this, was my face...

Haha not so scary laaa :)

Had fun today kinda. :) Unpacking. -.- Clearing it out only to add it back. -.-

SIGH epic win gagal la okayyy 

Anyway. School starts soon and I've not done SCRATCH SIGH

Better start. Expect an MIA haha :)

ADIOS :)

Gonna go unpackkkk :)

Ikut Rentak Sendiri

All this time, I've heard so much advice from so many different people. I believed in finding myself and seeking who I am as a person.

Then after talking to Danial, I realize that being yourself and making your own rhythm and shaping your own is what life really should be. A mix of a lot of things. Not just ONE. 

Because Love Runs Deep Within the Veins

Something horrible, horrible, absolutely terrible has transpired.

Leaving my family to pick up after me, in a very expensive manner.

And in the end, it left me in laughter tears, feeling downright bad and guilty.
However, my parents were just so calm and cool with it.
It broke my heart. I felt so bad. I really didn't mean to cause all this trouble for them or for myself. But who knew that this would've happen.

Then it made me realize just how much my parents really love me. 

Sitting at the lunch table today watching my brother get angry with dad just boiled my blood and being the accidental hypocrite, I felt down right snafu. 

But I realize that all this, is done with love.

After lunch and before I left for the airport, I spoke to my brother and to my surprise, he listened and took in everything I had to say, no questions asked, no annoyance, nothing. Just absorbing it like a sponge and understanding it. When he never used to.

Then when I saw him on Skype just a few hours later, he would still greet me with a grin on his face and a sparkle in his eyes (okay the sparkle, slight exaggeration la).

Love..? Respect.

And the other day when I went back to visit my Grandpa who is recovering from a broken heart, watching him cry for the things he wish she would've done to be alive just broke my heart and his love for her softened my heart.

So many things, in the past month has shown me the love and care from my family.

Thus, the title.

I'm sorry for not being able to elaborate more. I am drained and staring at the computer isn't really working...

And speaking of love, seeing Brandon's blog and seeing this one particular just shows me the love he has for something he loves.

It's been way over a year and it's still on there. Amazing. Truly.