Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

1. :)
2. Confused

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Kay, not as in sexually turn on but more of like what makes me interested in them kinda turn on. :)

1. People who care. I mean, really care.
2. Talented people (music, art, cooking!)
3. People I can relate to :)

I'm at Adrian's place. :) It's soo pretty :)

New Years is 2 days away. Any wishes? :)

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

They're just turn offs, not like I hate them. 
Just sayin, in case you thought I hate them as a person.


1. Chain Smokers.
2. Drinkers.
3. Druggies.
4. Energizer Bunnies, where all they can think of is sex and they are like energizer bunnies (with many different people).

Just The Way You Are

I lied. I wasn't all that busy. I just got back and changed into my jammies actually.

I've an immense headache and am in dire need for sleep. Think I should do that nowwww. :) Night...



This is a rather cool cover tho :)

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

I know I will be super busy all day so here it is.

5. Dad.
4. Mom. 
3. Tristan.
2. Shiori Murayama
1. Zoe Suwen Huang



Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Five:

Six things you wish you’d never done.
6. Gotten into my first relationship.
5. Jumping into the second one right after.
4. Let that asshole change me into someone I don't wanna become.
3. Given up ballet dancing.
2. Not listening to mom and dad (sometimes)
1. Stop being myself.

I'm Sorry I Skipped

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.


1. I burp and belch cause I believe that it is in fact a very human thing, nothing to be ashamed of.
2. I'm usually rather shy
3. I used to be super athletic
4. I've big legs, something I don't really like.
5. I enjoy ice cream on a cold day.
6. I like walking under the rain knowing I can have a nice hot shower right after
7. I like swimming more than I do Track now, honestly.
8. Soon, I will be one of the female pilots, flying you places. :)
9. I like you. :) But you don't know. I think. :/


Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
8. Talk to me, if I can relate to you, then you got me.
7. Be nice. To anyone. Specially people I like cause being nice is the first step to winning everybody's heart.
6. Be yourself and not someone with a mask.
5. Don't judge me, but embrace me for who I am instead.
4. Engage with me in super intriguing things. Things I like to talk about.
3. Spend time with me. BIG WIN. Mere Exposure Effect eyh ;)
2. Let me in on your secrets. :) They keep me entertained and its a process of me getting to know you :)
1. All you have to do is CARE.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
1. Will I succeed in the future?
2. I really don't know anything, do I?
3. If a person can be younger but more mature, I don't think it impossible for super old people to be insanely immature.
4. I wanna go skating. I wanna perform and wear my costumes again.
5. I wonder how my family is doing. I miss them.
6. It is insanely vital that I build my character and my courage to speak up. Maybe if I learned more, I just may be able to speak up more cause I've more knowledge.
7. I wonder how he feels about me.


I apologize for skipping so many days. :( SOWEE :(


An update. :)


Me Denise and Eddie went to Phat Vu's place today :) It was funn :) I fell asleep watching Family Guy Star Wars. :) It was rather relaxing :) 

Teehee :)

10 Days of Questions

A while ago, I found this on Miss Amber Boll's tumblr and I thought it to be rather fun to complete :)

And since finals are now over, I can focus on other things like this. :)

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

And so, answer to Day One:
1. I really thought you were different. Different from the picture people painted of you. But I guess all in all, they were right. I was so wrong to trust you would do the more human thing. I thought I could look past all the things I usually do not agree of. I did, I really did. I thought I liked you but I guess not. Cause in the end, it was the lies that just makes it so easy to say goodbye. You've created a WAR for yourself. Good luck with that.
2. I do not understand why you did what you did. I apologize if I ever gave you the wrong message. I guess I got lonely. But either way, to me you're just someone I'm friendly with. Observing your reactions over the semester has shown me just how shallow of a person you are. I don't think I wanna deal with that right now. So, I think you deserve a smile and nothing more.
3. Way to go, you. Thanks for decorating this place. Yes, with all the stuff lying around, our decorations. Thanks for always taking out the trash and cleaning up after yourself and for attracting the ants. They're so friendly. Thanks. Thanks for everything.
4. Thanks for making this super awkward. It really isn't my fault that you had to do this to me. You had a choice. You could've walked away but you chose to push through it and fall for him. And thanks for making everything so friendly and warm. Saying hi, showing just how much you actually "care". Thanks. I'm done wasting my time with you, honestly.

~*~*~

5. I am super proud of you. :) You've done well and you deserve it! :) I'm glad you compared yourself with me but you should know that I'm not your biggest challenge. You are. :) I love you. Always and forever.
6. Thank you for being so strong. You carry forth this strength and vitality that I could never muster. You strive and you progress through the unneeded pain and horrids of life. You are one of the most precious people I've ever met. Keep pushing through! You're amazing!
7. Thank you for working so hard for me. Thank you for putting so much faith and trust in me. Watching you build your work as I grew up was rather interesting and inspiring. Looking at our old pictures and watching the color change in your hair gives me the motivation to make something super worthy of myself. Your love, strength, wisdom and hard work has shown me the importance of hardship. Thank you. I love you!
8. Thank you for your opposing ideas and your will to allow me to challenge them. This has made me a stronger person and one who is learning to be quick on her feet. Thank you for saving my butt every single time. You're the best :)
9. Thanks for being there for me through the tough times and the times when I felt alone. It is you who has made me feel loved and I marvel at every single that you had to put up with. Thank you so much! :)
10. My bitch. :) Always and forever will be. :) My partner in crime. :) Although this year has been tough, I'm so glad I had you and I'm joyous to know that I helped you find a new reason to stay. You're one heck of a person and everyday with you is truly awesome. :) I heartchuuuu :)

XOXO. Kim.

Winter.

Winter is here....

So is Christmas, just round the corner...

And instead of snow, we got rain. :)

In the rain, I walked, the umbrella flipped a gazillion times that 2 hours of hair curling went down the drain.

Nevertheless, a rather interesting night.

Mah Girls. :)

Bree Anderson. ♥

Drenched in the rain. I gave up on the umbrella altogether. 

Alsoooo, this time, I decided to challenge myself and see if I could do my make up without eyeliner. 

Wasted Curls. 

What dyou think? :) 

Update

Here is an update of what has happened. :)

These babies were brought home! Saved me an arm and leg on shipping ;)

Post hair dye. No more ugly showing roots with light ends

Mi clase de Spanish de 201. Los amo.

Psych 100. One of my favorite classes! Note Pikachu Boys.

Japanese 201 My professor brought us food!

:) 好きなクラス

Did I tell you that I cooked? :) This is us post food with bouncy hairs.

OM NOM NOM

And pictures with the girls from Ghungroo who are going on Study Abroad

Veronica, Akhila, Shivi and Kandi. :) 

My roommate and the Masako at Holiday Party

My "bitch" :) I LOVE  YOU WOMAN

The Pikachu Boys!

We were heading out to work, only to find that the library was closed FFFU ><

Our Violin Recital. I was shaking sooo badly

Our district meeting :)

I am finally free from finals. Finally ready to sleep, rest and do everything simple that bring me joy. :)
Like watching TV for example. AH. Something I've not done in TOO LONG.
I've been helping Martha with her essay and I can't wait till everyone is done. They all deserve a long ass break. :)

Dreams

I found myself falling to sleep involuntarily thinking of you.

It's odd cause it seemed all so nice in that little thought.

~*~*~

I stayed up till 3am finishing my Modes paper. Put invisible on my Skype and just worked on my paper. :)

Finished it faster than I thought. With all those distractions. 

MARK SEOW. 

Goshhh *rolls eyes*

Talked to Mark while I wrote my paper. :) Then Riri came over for a cuppa and we had so much fun. Oh Riri. :) 

I'm kinda free from work today. Like paper wise, so I'm gonna channel my energy to studying for Spanish, Psychology and Japanese. :)

I'm kinda excited. I feel more prepared, like this time last year, I was freaking out, being all upset cause I did badly throughout the semester but this time, I feel more complete. :) No bad feelings. :)

I like change. 

A LOT. 

I like it... 

THISSS MUCH!! :D -sorry, that was the max that blogger would allow me-

OH!

I forgot to tell you about my little photo shoot with Charles.

He looks like a merman. :) HAHA

Here are some of my favorites.

Sure was a foggy night out. It was freezing out!

Here are two of his favorites:

I look like a kid with uber chubby cheeks. Ew.

Weird Dreams and No Deeper Meaning.

I dreamt of you last night.

You were much nicer and much less, you. In that sense.

You were more patient and you were sweeter, with no hidden agenda.

This is too weird.

The whole dreaming thing and thinking thing too. OMG!

Hmm. Either way, it sure made me not wanna wake up this morning.

"You Should Get A Boyfriend For Christmas"

Kanasai la you -.-

I can't believe you totally said that by coincidence when I was about to say "I want a boyfriend".

Seriously...?

Jinxed.

Oh vell. :)
Least I know it ain't gonna be you neither will I be swept off my feet by Christmas. :)

HEH HEH HEHHHH :)
Then again, I was soooo tempted to be like "sure, since you're so adamant about me having one, why don't you be my boyfriend?!"

Poo face. -.-

*starts singing the Mariah Carey tune -I think ya'll know which one-*

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

Saw this on butiamber's tumblr :) 

Imma do it after finals :) 

MEANWHILEEE

Feast your eyes on this little cutie. 

OMG *melts!*

3 More

I finished my Psych presentation and I'm EXCITED

MIA for a bits. :)

Mah Japanese Chinese Bitch :)

I had a good 2 hour conversation with the

And as usual, she never fails to amaze me with what she has to say with a lot of things. :) 

Made me do a fair bit of thinking :) and it always ends on a funny note. :) 

GAH 

I LOVE YOU WOMAN! 

What is it?

I saw this this morning but only an excerpt from it.
And this evening it was sent to me as an article and I found it to be rather meaningful.
Zoe. My dear friend, this is for you too.

The agonies of love are many and varied. Each person has their own character and personality; they have different backgrounds and circumstances. So there is no set rule that applies equally to everyone . . . Whom a person dates is also a matter of personal choice. No one essentially has any right to meddle in your private affairs.

As one who has many years of experience, however, I would like to stress at the outset how important it is not to lose sight of pursuing your own personal development. 

Love should be a force that helps you expand your life and bring forth your innate potential with fresh and dynamic vitality. That is the ideal but, as the saying "Love is blind" illustrates, people often lose all objectivity when they fall in love.

If the relationship you're in is causing your parents to worry, or making you neglect your studies or engage in destructive behavior, then you and the person you're seeing are only being a negative influence and hindrance to each other. Neither of you will be happy if you both just end up hurting each other. 

If you are neglecting the things you should be doing, forgetting your purpose in life because of the relationship you're in, then you're on the wrong path. A healthy relationship is one in which two people encourage each other to reach their respective goals while sharing each other's hopes and dreams. A relationship should be a source of inspiration, invigoration and hope. 

Love is a complex matter that is a reflection of each person's attitude and philosophy toward life. That is why I believe people shouldn't get involved in relationships lightly. 

The bottom line is that, without respect, no relationship will last for very long nor will two people be able to bring out the best in each other. 

Rather than becoming so love-struck that you create a world where only the two of you exist, it is much healthier to learn from those aspects of your partner that you respect and admire, and continue to make efforts to improve and develop yourself. Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, the author of The Little Prince, once wrote, "Love is not two people gazing at each other, but two people looking ahead together in the same direction." It follows then that relationships last longer when both partners share similar values and beliefs. 

Furthermore, please don't succumb to the view that love is the be-all and end-all, deluding yourself that as long as you are in love, nothing else matters. Nor, I hope, will you buy into the misguided notion that sinking ever deeper into a painful and destructive relationship is somehow cool. 

All too often when a relationship ends, the great passion it once inspired seems nothing more than an illusion. The things you learn through studying, on the other hand, are much more permanent. It is important, therefore, that you never extinguish the flame of your intellectual curiosity. 

Far too many people nip their own brilliant promise in the bud because of their blind pursuit of love. 

Much of daily life tends to be ordinary and unexciting. Making steady efforts day-to-day can be trying. It's not always going to be fun. But, when you fall in love, life seems filled with drama and excitement; you feel like the leading character in a novel.

But if you lose yourself in love just because you're bored, and consequently veer from the path you should be following, then love is nothing more than escapism. What you are doing is retreating into a dream world, believing that what is only an illusion is actually real.

But even if you try to use love as an escape, the fact is that the euphoria is unlikely to last for long. If anything, you may only find yourself with even more problems along with a great deal of pain and sadness. However much you may try, you can never run away from yourself. If you remain weak, suffering will only follow you wherever you go. You will never find happiness if you don't change yourself from within. Happiness is not something that someone else, like a lover, for instance, can give to you. You have to achieve it for yourself. And the only way to do so is by developing your own character and capacity as a human being; by fully maximizing your potential. If you sacrifice your own growth and talent for love, you will absolutely not find happiness. True happiness is obtained through fully realizing your own potential. 

I would also like to add that to embark on a relationship as an escape from something is extremely disrespectful to both your partner and yourself. 

Each of you has a precious mission that only you can fulfill . . . To neglect one's mission and seek only personal pleasure is a sign of selfishness. It is impossible for an egotistic, self-centered individual to truly love another person.

On the other hand, if you genuinely love someone, then through your relationship with them, you can develop into a person whose love extends to all humanity. Such a relationship serves to strengthen, elevate and enrich the inner realm of your life. Ultimately, the relationships you form are a reflection of your own state of life. The same is true of friendship. Only to the extent that you polish yourself now can you hope to develop wonderful bonds of the heart in the future.

With some people, however, once they have gotten into a relationship, they have a hard time saying "no" to the other person for fear of losing them. In that respect, love is like riding in a car with no brakes. Sometimes, even if you want to get out, you can't; even if you regret having gotten in, the car won't stop. In many cases, people get involved in a relationship thinking they are free and independent, but at some point find they have become captive to the relationship.

Each one of you is infinitely precious. Therefore, I hope you will treat yourself with utmost respect. Please don't follow a path that will cause you suffering, but take the road that is best for your well-being.

The truth is, ideal love is fostered only between two sincere, mature and independent people. It is essential, therefore, that you work on polishing yourself first. 

It is demeaning to be constantly seeking your partner's approval. Such a relationship is bereft of real caring, depth or even love. If you find yourself in a relationship where you are not treated the way your heart tells you you should be, I hope you will have the courage and dignity to decide that you are better off running the risk of being scorned by your partner than have to endure an unhappy relationship.

Real love is not two people clinging to each other; it can only be fostered between two strong people secure in their individuality. A shallow person will only have shallow relationships. If you want to experience real love, it is important to first sincerely develop a strong self-identity. True love is not about doing whatever the other person wants you to do or pretending you are something you're not. If someone genuinely loves you, they will not force you to do anything against your will nor embroil you in some dangerous activity. 

No matter how much you may appear to be enjoying yourself now, or how serious you think you are about the relationship, if you allow your love life to consume all your time and energy to the detriment of your own growth, then you're just playing a game. And if you're always playing games, then your life will be just that, a game. Regardless of how large a number is, if multiplied by zero, it will inevitably come to zero. To have a relationship that wipes out the value in one's life is truly sad. 

Please have the confidence and fortitude to think to yourself when you face rejection: "It's their loss if they can't appreciate how wonderful I am!" This is the kind of resilient spirit you must strive to cultivate. 

Please don't let a broken heart discourage you. Tell yourself that you're not so weak or fragile as to let such a minor thing bring you down. You may think there is no one who could possibly compare to that person, but how will they compare to the next hundred, the next thousand, the next ten thousand people you will meet? You cannot declare with certainty that there will not be others who far surpass them. As you yourself grow, the way you look at people will change as well.

I'm sure quite a few among you have had your hearts broken or been badly hurt, and perhaps feel unable to go on, your self-esteem in tatters. But you must never believe that you are worthless. There is no substitute for you who are more precious than all the treasures in the universe gathered together. 

It is important for you to become strong. For if you are strong, even your sadness will become a source of nourishment, and the things that make you suffer will purify your life.

Only when you experience the crushing, painful depths of suffering can you begin to understand the true meaning of life. Precisely because you have experienced great suffering, it is imperative that you go on living. The important thing is to keep moving forward. If you use your sadness as a source of growth, you will become a person of greater depth and breadth--an even more wonderful you.

-Daisaku Ikeda

Procrastination

I know I'm supposed to be doing some hardcore work at the mo. But this is too awesome not to share!

Someone give this man a contract!!!!!

Christmas Wish

I have this one wish for Christmas. It's a little of a miracle wish. But I wish...

that I will grow taller. Significantly TALLER.

I hope by then, everything else will fall into place and things will be nicer :)


you seem to be part of that wish list too. but i'm scared to death.

Ballerina.

This reminds me of my childhood days, when I took ballet and then later was in other stuff that was semi-related.

I wish I had stayed in ballet. :(

SIGH.

Edit:
Going to watch Black Swan as my "scary movie" with the flower. :) EXCITE! Never been this excited for scary movies ever. This is new.