HUNGRY.

I am hungry for chili padi with soy sauce and rice.

Just that.

I am hungry for the 30th of May.

I am hungry for home cooked food and Maggi Mee.

I WANT TO GO HOME.
I hate it here. I really do.

With the current events that are taking place right now, I just wanna go home.

HOME is where I wanna be. Free from all this drama. Free from all you guys' fucking faces. I am SICK AND TIRED of them. I am sick of seeing your names pop up in my Skype. I am sick of saying hi to you and saying I'm okay cause I really am fucking not. I am sick and tired of 'trying' to talk to you guys or even wreck my brains of SHIT to say when you guys don't even fucking acknowledge my presence. FUCK YOU okay. FUCK YOU. You all think you're all that. There's so many of you and one of me. Stop your lame ass pity glances cause I don't need them. You can shove your fucking culture and your constant speaking of your language up your faces. Don't you know just how bloody rude you are?! Speaking in your native language when people like me don't know what in the bloody world it is you're saying?! Quit your stupid smiles. I can't stand them. Fuck you guys' 'jolly-ness' fuck that, you guys sit in your own clan and just do your own thing. So much for unity in the school.

FUCK YOU.
Seriously.

FUCK YOU.

MIA Perhaps.

I think I'm gonna have to take an MIA status soon.

I've so much work to do with so very little time...

A writing paper, a philosophy paper, my spanish vocabs, the google earth assignments that requires 4-5 chapters of reading.

I need to go. :(

Voy a estudiar estudiar estudiar!

Tengo mucho trabajo.

MIA begins..

Ahora.

No Gaga tonight.

So I came back from my meet insanely tired with a headache.

With that, I decided to raincheck on Gaga night.

Instead, I did a mini Gaga look for the Namoca party.

Results...

A failed attempt at Gaga-ness and embarrassing myself for the last minuteness.

And the next morning...

A lion head. :)

Just cause I love you guys. :)

YAY :)

Okay. Off to work.

I...

I still care.
I still feel the same.
Yes I feel this is not going to go away.
Not for a very long while.
Like I said, I still care.
I still care.
Watching you today just proved...
how much I still care.
I still care DAMNIT.

damnit.

Oh friend you've left me speechless.

I will be up early tomorrow.

I will go for my Track Meet, come back and go back out for an amazing party.

Sorry Naoka and Momoca. Won't be able to celebrate your birthdays. :(

You know I love you. Will be in my Gaga inspired outfit.

Speaking of whom, we were blasting her album in the car and just singing along the best we can.

Walking around Irvine and smelling in the waft that has now become an anchor, I think about the things that once were and what cannot be no more.

Hmm. Well. Too bad for me then.

Hush don't talk.

Okay. So, in attempts to ease the awkwardness with someone, I think I made it worse. :(

GAH. I just died abit on the inside. :(

It's sure as hell gonna take more than just a smile to get through this. I'm just glad that things are in a somewhat lighter mode.

Hmm. Was up till 2 this morning doing the Google Earth assignments! :) YAY. not. Woke up 5 hours later to continue it. Hmm. Almost there now. I can pull through. Just a brief summary about my thoughts for this semester (in the beginning of it)...
I thought that was gonna be the hardest, most intense semester ever. What with all the classes that I am taking that require lots of TLC. This is because of the Track practices in the middle of the day that I used to use to do work (okay fine, not really) and because I'm so tired at the end of the day. Then, not forgetting the fact that I have joined more clubs that also take up more of my time.

Observation thus far:
I really am thankful and glad of my choice. I think its helping me plan stuff better, and it's helping me be more motivated to do well. Also, I'm waking up early, to many they say it's a good thing (to me not really la, since it's become more of a habit kinda thing, so when I wanna sleep in, I can't)

Conclusion:
I'm happy. kinda. 


On a side note...
If there were a police for breaking a one week thing, I'd be found guilty. hee. :) Just sayin. :)

Embarrassing myself a bit to make up for this. Hmph. Don't remember who took it. But good job. Least I don't look as retarded as I usually do in candids. :)

Overslept.

Set my alarm for 6.00, snoozed it only to wake up at 7. :( Oh dear.

Went back to sleep and woke up in time for breakfast.

Oh jolly. Hear my enthusiasm.

HEee. Got Spanish homework down before I went to bed though! :)

*Bangga giler!!*

On another "Proud Mama" moment, the Morita finally is learning to get more jokes (in a more instant time frame). It used to take her 10 whole minutes, when we're talking about something else before she would go 'OH! I get it!' Now its so much better. :) Ah, love. :)

The other is Kenichi and his english. :) I am proud to say that I had something to do with his improvement in english. :) It was during Core but hey, an impact is an impact yeah! It stays. ;) Ha. :) Oh boy.

Heart stopping moment last night. Not cool dude. Like seriously. :( I hope you don't take it the wrong way. I'm just still at the point of heart stopping when I see you. 


MEH. :(

Sakit hati. GAH.

OOH! Saturday is my 2nd meet day! :) I'm runnning a 200M! YAY! Oh joy!!! :) <3

P90X.

GAH.

Workout for tomorrow's swim practice. EE! :(

Should go sleep. GAH! Spanish. :( Damnit. I thought I had this down! :(

Rindu.

I miss my mama and papa.

Talking to them on Skype last night made me miss them so much.

Bet you guys are enjoying your time away from the well earned vacay. :)

I miss you guys.

MEH.

Kay. So I need to use this time I have between now and my meeting to do my homework. Yeah bitch.

HOMEWORK. Oh writing. :( MEH.

Anyway. Pac Basin final totally killed me! ARGH. Was studying since the 'Great Scroll' was made available for our eyes and I think I died during the test. :( OH MY GOD. Die, kay? DIE I tell you! :(

Last night, my headache exceeded all I could take. Resulting in me using my friend's sunnies (mine were rather brown, making the blockage very little) to cover the light that seemed to be extremely exaggerated. Horrible.

Spot Miss Headache. SMASHING eyh? ;) 

Okay. Better run and do my work. :) YAY me! Oh jolly joy.

Birthday Candles.

Dear Naoka.

All the very best wishes on your very special day.

I'm sure you're gonna rock the world with your mighty awesomeness. :)

I absolutely love you and can't wait to see what the next 3 years (and the remainder of the 2nd semester) will bring us!

:) Love loads, laugh lots and smile crazy.

I love you!

Love,
Kim.

Young Girl, Don't Cry

So after one short and very er-ing conversation, things have gone back to normal.

Yet another broken word, is it?

Wow. Great.

Just marvelous.

Trickle trickle.

Is that yet another failed attempt? God. What am I supposed to do? Just SIT around and wait, only to find you to be non responsive. C'mon now.

Stop playing these games.

Just, STOP.

Walking Contradiction.

Sometimes, when you see others saying one thing and doing a completely different thing, you think about how they're such bitches but have you ever stopped to think that maybe...
They do it cause they have to? For the sake of others?
Just so others could feel good about themselves?

I'm not saying that being contradicting is very nice.

But I mean...

Sometimes, in order to help the ones you care about, it's okay to be contradictory.

Don't you think so..?

I just think that this is cool. Yar? :)

PETERPAN.

Ah. :)

Listening to them for the first time in a long ass time. And well, I'm listening to one song but like the dew on the grass in the morning, it's just lingering in my head. :)

Uber awesomeness. :)

Nuff said.

Laundry's been in the machine for forever. :( No buena.

Whee. Dinner was a bomb. Had tum tum aches from the laughter. :) Oh japanese people, how you crack me up. :)
あいしてるね！:)

RIGHT. Time to get ready for the rest of the night. School starts tomorrow. Are you ready?

no.

Haha, yeap.

Butt Kickin' in Session, BITCHES!

So. 

I found out something new today. Yeah, this morning yeah.

I am so glad to know that I can finally do well in the things I do. :) 

Yes sirree. :) 

It's nice to know that I can complete a paper on the same day its due, be on Track, Ghungroo and the IF co-chair at the same time and still get a rockin' A for it. :) Yeah babeh. :) 

ME GUSTA MUCHO! 

To find out that others are doing less but doing worse, somehow makes me feel so much better about myself. Seriously. Sorry, I may just sound really mean or what not, and don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to diss anyone or anything. I'm just saying that I'm glad to know that I'm capable of doing so many things and doing well in it. :) 

YES. 

Oh boy. Jolly happy feeling. :) Makes me happeee. :) 

I miss my long hair. Grow hair, growwww!

Updated!

Okay. Yay hooray! :)
I have now a great kick ass new look for this blog.

Woot! :)

AH. What'ya think?? :)