On A Side Note.

As the title says...

I had a weird dream last night. It was of me waking up to find that my eyebrows were so BADLY tweezed, it was almost ALL gone! ARGH. Not cool.

And just as I dug out my make up to cover it all up, I woke up.

Dreams can be really weird sometimes. Realistic dreams boggle my mind ALL the time.

Realistic daydreams just piss the shit out of me.

I was sitting in the sun reading for Pac Basin and suddenly, I saw you walking up to me. You had a smile on your face, the one that you used to give me all the time. Every time I am being ridiculous and you think it's funny or when I say specs instead of glasses. You walked up to me and you held my hand and hugged me. You leaned in and kissed me, like how you used to when I told you of my dreams and my wish that they would come true. The same one you gave me after you told me that I can do it.

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pfft WOW. What the fuck. No. Who am I kidding. Seriously. I really dislike realistic daydreams.

* i miss you. i really do. i want to talk to you but i'm still really scared. can you come talk to me instead? *

Counter Productive.

I am being very counter productive. Which frankly, really sucks.

I should be SUPER productive. Essays and what not.

SIGH.

I am really considering closing my booth.

I dunno what to do. I'm short staffed and what shit. I can't do this.

Sleep Take Two

I had 8 hours of sleep last night and I am still insanely sleepy.

I know my body is catching up with the fatigue from Track but I think this is getting too much.

It doesn't seem right anymore.

I kinda need to fix it please.

Thank you.

Note to self:
Hi Kim, I know you're tired but this is getting out of hand.
Stop sleeping kay.
Love you.
Kay kay thanks. Bye.

Estoy Contenta.

After 3 pairs of shoes, a snuggie, some thai food, a funny movie and some really yum rice crispies, I am happy.

I shan't rant on just how sucky my day was.


I am going to bed.

God is Playing Tricks on me.

Okay, so earlier in the day, I wanted to go to bed. And up till like 12-ish, all I really wanted to do was go to bed.

It is 1.09am now and I feel more awake. -.- Not cool yo.

Well, I finished my Spanish homework! :) For onceee. :)

I'm rather proud of myself. :)

But I didn't do the readings for writing class. MEH. :( No Kim, bad. :(

MMH. Oh well. :) Will do okay though. :) I know I will. :)

Okay, I kinda wanna go to bed. :) So that I can get up early to read. :) TEEEEE. :)

Sleep.

Is it weird that I always wanna go to sleep??

I:

•  caught myself yawning so many times in class today.
• added 5 more minutes to my alarm this morning
• added an hour to my alarm yesterday!
• am really sleepy now actually
• would go to sleep now if you gave me a bed with some pillows and a blanket. Seriously.
• am sleeping so much, it's weird.

Haha. This is not cool. Seriously. I need to stay awake! *slaps face* Okay, ow. -.-

Back when I had no tum tum. SIGH.

Day 2 of being insanely happy. Martha says its good that I'm happy but it's kind of for the wrong reasons. [She also thinks that I should've put in a schedule to talk. But yeah, smart ass me, never think things through first. SIGH.]

I kinda agree with her. But I really don't feel that the person even cares anyway. So, really, I don't know, why bother? I need to be writing my paper right now but it tak jadi jadi-ing. This is not nice. :( 

BY THE WAY.

I like this. :)



If you watch it till the end, you'll see the Carl App, I thought was SO cute that I actually bought it. -.- DEAR GOD. *smacks head*
Just a random ramble.

This was posted on Carmen's blog. And I watched it. This is kinda really super awesome.

I'm writing about Love for Philosophy. Hmm.

Kim has...

Black hair once more! :)

YESH

*Basks in black hair gloryyy*

Absolute love! :)

Yay!! :)

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

How can a person like someone and lose their respect for that person at the same time?


I really can't see the logic in that. 


It's driving me insane. I care so much about you but my respect for you has stooped so low. 


I can't believe you did what you did, not only was it inhumane, but it was pure disgusting. 


I don't know.


Whatever, it doesn't matter to you but whatever. I am just very disturbed. 

Like death, like a funeral, I am offering my white roses. 

Finish Line.

Today was the last meet of the Track season.

I sure had fun. :) As always. :) I'm kinda sad though. But its okay. I know I had lots of fun and have lots of photos to remind me in the future. :)

 Last night's Yakisoba. :)

RAWR. :)

Kay. :) That was today and yesterday. I think I am going to go to bed and get the very much needed sleep. :)

Good night world.

Watched this movie last night.

Title: A Moment to Remember

Description: If I tell you, I'd be spoiling it

End Result: REALLY puffy eyes.

SIGH.

Nuff said. Gonna go for my LAST meet. I can do this. Imma PR again. :)

Shut

I want to shut my eyes and go to sleep.

I couldn't wake up today, the sun shone its light on my face but I still wanted to go to bed.

But theres a Club Senate dinner, Yakisoba thingy and a movie to watch. I am really sleep though. :(

Not Counting On It.

I knew it.

I just don't think that one thing is enough to let things be okay.

No matter how nice it may be.

Oh well. At least I know now that I can't say I didn't do anything.

Cause I did.

Birthday Girl. 

Pretty, no? :) 

I shall hit the sack.

Birthday Love.

Dear Sachiko. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :) 

Words cannot describe the admiration I have for you. :) 

All I can say is I'm really gonna miss you after graduation. Meanwhile, I LOVE YOU and I can't wait to go on our last meet together!! :) 

Ouchers. :(

It rained today. :(

It was COLD. VERY cold. The wind was blowing and it was freezing (a VERY nice day to sleep in by the way). And so, Track practice was indoors today. Things were going good until the last Suicide Line exercise. :(

I pulled on some muscle, shan't elaborate where but it has made life very excruciating. :( No me gusta. And icing was the worst cause evaporation made me look like I peed in my pants. :( EEK. :(

And now, it is still nice and cozy in my room from the cold of outside. Thus, I kinda wanna just stay in and not go to Boba. But I can't. :( MEH.

Loop to Loop.

tada. 

People asked me how short was the shortest of my hair. Happy, you guys?

Better I hope. 

* is this t-shirt thing a coincidence or...?* 

Can it be you again?

I wanna be able to take a picture of you like this again.

Righto.

Last night sure flew by real quickly. :(

Too quickly actually. :(

Sigh. Left me barely any time for ANYTHING. Whatever la.

Okay. Anyway.

I have 40 days left. A part of me wants to make it so much better, another part of me is like, fuck this shit. Seriously. I dunno what to do.
I need some sort of time out. I need to cry.

Its not happening.

I'm in my 'fuck the world' mood right now. Let's see how the day progresses.

In my dreams...

...I kissed your lips a thousand times.

I've been having dreams of the same genre in the past 4 nights.

Weird, I don't remember what happened but the same person is in it. In all of them.

I can't fathom this. Like I said earlier, I feel like we're playing this game of hide and seek.

Just when I think things are getting better, either I or you start running the opposite direction.

Exactly like hide and seek.

Sigh.

*i fling this key chain and I ponder upon what happened*

Soka Peace Invitational.

Okay so I don't have any pictures of me running today. 

But I sure as hell can say that the events I took part in were insanely fun. :) Yes, I had LOTS of fun running today. :) Mmmhmmm. :)

And meet... *nameless*, Bree's new puppyyy. :) Cute eyh? :) She was the talk of the meet funnily. Okay, not everyone but a WHOLE bunch of us. :) You should've seen her when she fell asleep. :) OMG SO CUTE. 

And yes. I shall now go to bed so that I can wake up early to do my paper tomorrow. :) YES.

and and 

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TERUUUU!!! :) 

Luau

Okay so after the whole day of silence, I decided that it was time that I spoke at lik 7ish 8. Felt weird to speak. 

Honestly!

And the Luau was fun. :) Good job you guys on the performances! :) 

Did I mention that the food was AMAZING? OMG. The bomb. :) I loved it but OMG it was so cold! I was freezing my bum off!!! ARGH. 

But okay. Anyway, I handed in my Pac Basin paper way before deadline! x) I am so proud of myselfff. GAH. :) Yes. :) One more to go and one more to start reading for. DEAR GOD. :( 

But for nowww. :) Soka Peace Invitational! :) I need to go, shower and hit the sack! And read the chinese novel! :) OMG. Time to brush up on my chinese!! :D 

Good night world. :) 

SPEECHLESS.

Today is

I am silent now.

Silent. :)

I have a headache. Just wanna sleep. But I can't. :(

Speechless. :(

OH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINAMIIIIIIIII :)

I heart youuuu! :) 

Ready to Crash, Burn and Die.

I managed to do my Google Earth assignment in time to go back, get changed and ready for the day. So.

In conclusion, I had only 2 hours of sleep. DANG.

However, running on 2 hours of sleep made me nothing but cranky, angry and annoyed.

Yeah. Wanted to die of embarrassment. Wanted to lock myself in some chamber and hide my face. Seriously.

Kay. Gonna go.

OH MY GOD.

I finished my first draft! DUDE

SERIOUSLY! I don't even have my conclusion and I've hit the page limit!! :)

YAY. :) Well, we'll see what Mr Prof says. :) WOW. I am absolutely proud of myself.

Sorry, did I mention that I am running on 4 hours of sleep? :) I am staying up to do the Google Earth now. :)

Just a short post before I go. :)

HA. Whee. Wow, I feel like some kid high on candy and sugar. Roll. Random but ha. :)

Uh oh.

KAY. Bye world. :) Google Earth time. ;)

Bungee or Free Fall?

As I'm sitting at lunch and as the table began to fill up with more and more upperclassmen, I began wondering to myself... That loneliness that I've been longing for some time... I know I will be getting it when I go home for the summer. That is a definite thing. And as for the opportunity to talk and communicate with my upperclassmen and classmates... It's coming to an end soon. I have, (I lost count) days till I go home and isolate myself from the "unreal and protected" bubble of SUA. Maybe I should use this time to talk to others and get to know them more?

But what do I say? What can I say and what shouldn't I say to avoid confusion and chaos?

I don't know.

What else CAN I ask them that has nothing to do with Capstone or graduating? Hmm. Ponder ponder.

Hmm. This is why I gave up talking a long long time ago. I kinda blame you, all you did was silenced me when I wanted to talk. (No, not you. YOU. *cringe*) You shut me up and never talked to me, thanks to you now, I don't know what else to say anymore.

Whatever. Doesn't mean I'm  not gonna attempt to talk.

Kay, paper time.

Force of Insanity.

So, my plan of taking a 3 hour nap before getting up at 4 to continue my Pac Basin paper worked.... NOT. :(

In fact, I decided to move my alarm to 7, go for breakfast and work on my paper. It is 6 more minutes till my first and only class of the day. I have 2 pages worth of stuff, 2 more to go! :) I am rather proud of myself. :)

And so, I shall go, and return to my faithful computer to do my paper. :) YAY ME! :)

*Peekaboo, can we stop playing Hide and Seek now?*

Thanks, dumbass.

Sorry about the MIA. :)

I kinda enjoyed life a bit without the use of my computer. :)
It was quieter and less stressing. Also, judging by the amount of sleep that I needed all through the weekend, the usage of the laptop would have killed it. (Cause apparently, if you look at it, your body would think that it's day time or something)
However, despite the efforts, I still am lacking in the Slumber Department (in the context of my current physical situation) and am in drastic need of some sort of pain reliever/ head clearing thing.
The head as been acting very strangely. If it isn't all light and weird, it is just throbbing mad.
The nose is stuffy one minute and clear the next, like its laughing at me (well, not literally).

On another note, despite the cold weather and my ANNOYING-AS-HELL flu, I managed to go shopping with Juliaaa. :) Dear God, it was one of the most painful ones. I got dolled up. Yes I diddd (only to NOT take any photos) and I looked like I was ever ready for some photoshoot (smacking head for not taking photos).

And the outcome of the trip, I got some stuff that I really wanted. :) Finally! I got myself that much needed handbag. :) I am so happy. I swear, it was one of the hardest decisions I had to make, cause the other one had a really pretty keychain on it. It was a butterfly! :( Oh well. I am happy with what I got. :)

Did I mention that this made me insanely happy? After what seems like forever since I washed my hair, I used this after I bought it yesterday. OMG. I am so happy. (Okay, so not the whole set but I used the shampoo+conditioner) Lily and Ashley laughed at me for my constant purchases of shampoo+conditioner. I can't help myself la. They're so pretty and they smell so yum. :) Teehee. :) 

Anyhoohas. I think it is time for me to go have brunch and get to my work. :) Lots to doooo. :) 

TOODLE LOO. 

Change.

I've changed.

I am not as happy as I was before. The smileys hide my true emotions.

My smiles are just an irony of the truth.

My words are like poison.

My heart beats at an unhealthy pace.

I've changed.

Waste.

Today, I skipped a class in replacement of some well needed sleep.

It was okay, went for the Nutrition thing for Track and am now back in my room, ready to go for my essay.

YEPPERS.

I feel so lazy. I feel useless a bit.

But, I'm gonna work on my paper now. :) Yeah. No more putting it off. :)

PWOMISH. :)

Cause I Can't Sleep At Night.

Okay, so my body is so insanely fatigue from the sickness that is drowning me like the storm in the seas.
After a whole night of contemplation and feeling like crap, I decided to call it an early night.
But to my dismay, falling asleep was not the hardest part. In fact, it was STAYING asleep that was.
With the heater on full blast, I was hoping to get a decent amount of heat to rid my body of the ickiness that has overpowered my physicality. Instead, I felt cold and hot, like some sort of thermometer that had been thrown into drastically different places with insane temperatures.
I had my alarm set to 8 as class had been cancelled. I had planned to get up at 8 with sufficient amounts of sleep. But no, my body decides to wake up earlier.
WAY earlier, mind you.
Thus, I was up at 7.30. And now, almost 3 hours later, I've finished my Spanish homework and have a very irritated nose. Hmm.
Marvelous.

MM. Last night, talking to Masako, I guess I revealed something really nice about you that I guess a lot of people may not know, that I am now sure that I have taken for granted.
I guess, now, I've really given up on the idea of wanting to talk to you. I guess it's a good thing for you? I guess it may just be so much healthier for me that way. I think. I think those embarrassing times are well sufficient.
And I am totally learning to accept the fact that my bed is forever be cold.

Falling out.

Today...
- Fever from last night
- Cold from last night
- Stomach ache at dinner
- Headache and light headedness
- Cried too much for 50 days. :(
- Laughed a bit from Jakub's speech.
- Sang and was INSANELY off tune.
- Skipped my one and only class of the day
- Had 6 hours of sleep, woke up for homework and went back to bed.
- Talked to Pang Sai. T'was good. :)

Tomorrow..
- Will go for Spanish and hopefully Track.
- Will be a better day.
- Is day 1 of Ghungroo's finale practice!

In general:
I think that things are okay when your heart doesn't beat as much as it used to.
So does that mean that cause my heart isn't beating as much, that I am...well, okay?
Or is this the fever talking?

I am going to bed. I am going to get rid of this physical horror that has attached itself to me.

Good night.

OWL CITY.

Today seems like the perfect day for some Owl City.

I like.

Absolute love. 

OUCHHHHH

My throat hurts! :(

REALLY baddd :(

It's really cloudy on the outside. Hmm. But I see the sun. Hmm. Reminds me of home a little bit. Like how it would rain heavily, we would be all nice and fuzzy in our class, there would still be a little sun but yeah. I kinda miss those days. Those days when I would wear my jacket and school uniform.

SIGH.

Kay, so, today looks like its gonna be one heck of a day! Better start crackin'!

I realize...

This is so cute! :) HAH. :)

Very much so, in my opinion. :) 

Well, for those of you who are currently on my sidebar to the right of my blog, you sure as hell are one of these!! :) Teehee. :) I'm saying! It's a good thing! :) Really. :) 

Regardless, I think it's cause of you guys that my life is so amazing. :)

So, I revealed something to some people today that I think would be really impossible for me to upkeep, but, I dunno. Is it even feasable? I hope and think so. 

Well, okay, I need to get on with the night, it's gonna be a hell of a night. With so much to do and so little time left in the day... 

Adios.

*te quiero, pero no me  reconoces* 

Easter Earthquake.

There was an earthquake today.

I was attempting to do my work. Kinda failed.

:(

I kinda don't wanna do my work.

Not anymore. Like, I like doing homework but I don't want to.

This is bad.

Imma go. :(

Me Levante.

I woke up pretty early thinking it was 10-ish, fell back asleep and woke up again only to find that it was only 10.30.

Damn. Oddity.

I had breakfast and am stuffed to the brim, and oh did I mention that I'm getting a very very very sore throat? :(

No me gusta! :(

It's still new and its not like really painful, but eek, it kinda sucks to have it. Oh well. :)

Okay, off to some homework!! I still am really amazed at how much I actually enjoy doing homework. The clicking of the keyboard, the writing of notes and the everything else about it. Hmm.

"I prefer the word unique"

Oh before I go!

I had a dream that I flew back home today, but for some funny reason, I didn't bring my documents that will allow me back into the US when I came back and I remembered that I hadn't stored ANY of my things on campus. And I was with mom and dad in the plane talking about it. Hmm, weird.

Kay, off I go.

Back on Track

I just got back from a meet.

I had fun.

Aside from my insane stomach ache which was later followed by a headache that refuses to go away, I had tonnes of fun. :)

Teehee. :)

*I dreamt about you, I don't know just how long more I can keep this up. To top things off, I heard someone laugh and it sounded just like you. I can't take this anymore...*

Picture perfect memories.

I love Need You Now by Lady Antebellum.


So good!


Anyway, I need to go to bed.


Track meet tomorrow but my joints don't feel right AT ALL! :(


URGH.


Kill me.


*is this how missing you is supposed to feel?*

Que necessité es...

All I needed was to cry.

Had like a 5 minute meltdown and good discussion with Martha before Ghungroo.

It really helped.

On top of that, seeing people's reaction when I told them I was 'leaving' kinda helped too.

Poquito.

Yeah. And did I mention that I got BOBA? :) YUM.
I am in Cloud 9.
Well, sorta.

Mom says my hair is longggg. :) Thank you Mama, I really needed to know that. :)
Also, did I tell you just how much I like it when my hair is wavy? Dude, I am so in love with it! And I like how my fringe falls in front of my face nowadays.

Oh right. Today, had 8 hours of well deserved sleep, had my morning run around campus, and wore my Gaga shades ALL DAY today. Somehow, I felt SO much calmer. Maybe cause no one could really see my face and I could pretty much do whatever I wanted with my eyes. Be it roll, close or just to cuci mata.

I kinda like the idea of sunnies wearing throughout the day, give me calmitude. :)

Hmm. Just a suggestion to self.

*guess this is how it is*

Boba.

Tonight is cancelled.
I was ready for it too. :(

Nooooo. :(

Time to go get that boba. :)

Kohei, where are you?

*i'm calmer now.*

Are you fucking KIDDING ME!

DUDE.

Are you kidding me?! DID YOU NOT SEE MY FACE AT PRACTICE LAST NIGHT?!
WHAT THE FUCK?! I go for my run, come back only to see the note telling me to come to practice on my doorknob. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! AND I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO GOT IT.
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!

WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM?!


URGH! SERIOUSLY NOW. YOU'RE ALL BEING SO FUCKING IMMATURE. 


FUCK YOU!