3 Weeks, Out.

Over the last three weeks, I took a hiatus.

Only contacting people who I wanted to see, an attending events/doing things that I really wanted to do. I crossed off bucket lists, added to my own "criminal" reputation (it's just a speeding ticket haha I'm mocking the officer who said the speed I was at minus 7mph was criminal haha), visited quite a good amount of places, and all on my own expense.

In the last 3 weeks, I had the marvelous privilege of watching a fantastic author receive his honorary doctorate degree from Yale, meet up with fantastic individuals, cozied in with some amazing people who treat me like family, have chats with my former professors, bawled my eyes out to people who then smothered me with hugs, love, encouragement, and a refreshed sense of determination & heart, and basically, have the rare opportunity to have heart-to-heart conversations about life, and emotions. In the last 3 weeks, I cried, laughed, sang, hugged (A LOT), talked, and listened to so much, that I feel prepared again for what's to come.

Instead of bombarding you with all these words, I'll just leave some of these here...

when you go get Kickin' Crab and the soccer match is on

Setengah.

Ya know what, it's definitely been too long.

Frankly, I'm a horrible blogger; if you can even categorize me as one. I take hiatuses, go AWOL, and basically play hide and seek with everyone, be it on social media or not. If people are even aware is a completely different field. But really, I've been home a while, and only a handful of people know. Some basically find out by bumping into me, not that I go out THAT often to begin with. Others, well, it's just cause I actively seek them out. Talk about lasting impressions: another thing I'm horrible with. I don't exactly remember a lot about a person. My brain only remembers those whose koo-koo levels are on par with mine. Either that or my crazy infatuated self thinks she's in love with you. You know, either or. Thinking aloud here.

But really, I know I apologize a lot, and knowing me (as much as I'd like to not admit it), I will be doing a lot more of that. Apologizing, that is. And yeah, you're probably right, it is an awful awful excuse to be missing from social media, or even this lonely, forsaken blog. Poor thing.

To be quite honest with you, I've not been in the best place lately. Not so much emotionally, nor mentally. Being a "fresh grad", being "funemployed, and been practically thrusted into the unwelcoming embrace of "the real world", and readjusting back to Malaysian culture (and not being very fond of it) has zombie-fied my.. well, me. I'm a pretty optimistic person in general. Though I may not seem it, nor do I portray it as much, I am. Especially when people laugh at me in disbelief; my optimism levels tend to skyrocket. Or so I thought.

I would go on. But honestly, what else is there to say right? Sides, what goes on the internet stays there permanently and whatever I say here shall be taken so seriously along with the repercussions that come with the package whether you want it to or not. Right? So, I'll just leave it as it is right now. I think I'm moving on with this and shan't think any longer about what has already happened.

We'll see where the wind blows this time. Hopefully it'll get me back to writing again.