HUNGRY.

I am hungry for chili padi with soy sauce and rice.

Just that.

I am hungry for the 30th of May.

I am hungry for home cooked food and Maggi Mee.

I WANT TO GO HOME.
I hate it here. I really do.

With the current events that are taking place right now, I just wanna go home.

HOME is where I wanna be. Free from all this drama. Free from all you guys' fucking faces. I am SICK AND TIRED of them. I am sick of seeing your names pop up in my Skype. I am sick of saying hi to you and saying I'm okay cause I really am fucking not. I am sick and tired of 'trying' to talk to you guys or even wreck my brains of SHIT to say when you guys don't even fucking acknowledge my presence. FUCK YOU okay. FUCK YOU. You all think you're all that. There's so many of you and one of me. Stop your lame ass pity glances cause I don't need them. You can shove your fucking culture and your constant speaking of your language up your faces. Don't you know just how bloody rude you are?! Speaking in your native language when people like me don't know what in the bloody world it is you're saying?! Quit your stupid smiles. I can't stand them. Fuck you guys' 'jolly-ness' fuck that, you guys sit in your own clan and just do your own thing. So much for unity in the school.

FUCK YOU.
Seriously.

FUCK YOU.

MIA Perhaps.

I think I'm gonna have to take an MIA status soon.

I've so much work to do with so very little time...

A writing paper, a philosophy paper, my spanish vocabs, the google earth assignments that requires 4-5 chapters of reading.

I need to go. :(

Voy a estudiar estudiar estudiar!

Tengo mucho trabajo.

MIA begins..

Ahora.

No Gaga tonight.

So I came back from my meet insanely tired with a headache.

With that, I decided to raincheck on Gaga night.

Instead, I did a mini Gaga look for the Namoca party.

Results...

A failed attempt at Gaga-ness and embarrassing myself for the last minuteness.

And the next morning...

A lion head. :)

Just cause I love you guys. :)

YAY :)

Okay. Off to work.

I...

I still care.
I still feel the same.
Yes I feel this is not going to go away.
Not for a very long while.
Like I said, I still care.
I still care.
Watching you today just proved...
how much I still care.
I still care DAMNIT.

damnit.

Oh friend you've left me speechless.

I will be up early tomorrow.

I will go for my Track Meet, come back and go back out for an amazing party.

Sorry Naoka and Momoca. Won't be able to celebrate your birthdays. :(

You know I love you. Will be in my Gaga inspired outfit.

Speaking of whom, we were blasting her album in the car and just singing along the best we can.

Walking around Irvine and smelling in the waft that has now become an anchor, I think about the things that once were and what cannot be no more.

Hmm. Well. Too bad for me then.

Hush don't talk.

Okay. So, in attempts to ease the awkwardness with someone, I think I made it worse. :(

GAH. I just died abit on the inside. :(

It's sure as hell gonna take more than just a smile to get through this. I'm just glad that things are in a somewhat lighter mode.

Hmm. Was up till 2 this morning doing the Google Earth assignments! :) YAY. not. Woke up 5 hours later to continue it. Hmm. Almost there now. I can pull through. Just a brief summary about my thoughts for this semester (in the beginning of it)...
I thought that was gonna be the hardest, most intense semester ever. What with all the classes that I am taking that require lots of TLC. This is because of the Track practices in the middle of the day that I used to use to do work (okay fine, not really) and because I'm so tired at the end of the day. Then, not forgetting the fact that I have joined more clubs that also take up more of my time.

Observation thus far:
I really am thankful and glad of my choice. I think its helping me plan stuff better, and it's helping me be more motivated to do well. Also, I'm waking up early, to many they say it's a good thing (to me not really la, since it's become more of a habit kinda thing, so when I wanna sleep in, I can't)

Conclusion:
I'm happy. kinda. 


On a side note...
If there were a police for breaking a one week thing, I'd be found guilty. hee. :) Just sayin. :)

Embarrassing myself a bit to make up for this. Hmph. Don't remember who took it. But good job. Least I don't look as retarded as I usually do in candids. :)

Overslept.

Set my alarm for 6.00, snoozed it only to wake up at 7. :( Oh dear.

Went back to sleep and woke up in time for breakfast.

Oh jolly. Hear my enthusiasm.

HEee. Got Spanish homework down before I went to bed though! :)

*Bangga giler!!*

On another "Proud Mama" moment, the Morita finally is learning to get more jokes (in a more instant time frame). It used to take her 10 whole minutes, when we're talking about something else before she would go 'OH! I get it!' Now its so much better. :) Ah, love. :)

The other is Kenichi and his english. :) I am proud to say that I had something to do with his improvement in english. :) It was during Core but hey, an impact is an impact yeah! It stays. ;) Ha. :) Oh boy.

Heart stopping moment last night. Not cool dude. Like seriously. :( I hope you don't take it the wrong way. I'm just still at the point of heart stopping when I see you. 


MEH. :(

Sakit hati. GAH.

OOH! Saturday is my 2nd meet day! :) I'm runnning a 200M! YAY! Oh joy!!! :) <3