big dreams, little one.

Someone posted this on Facebook right after I told a friend of mine about how scared I am with my future.

I have hope. 

It will happen! 

Love,

Kim. ♥

Universe How.

After crazy attempts at trying to find the last character of my name 颖 on the Chinese pinyin list (which was actually right in my face but in my impatience I ran by it), I resorted to looking it up online for copy paste purposes. And in the definition it says:

1. 植物学上指某些禾本科植物小穗基部的苞片 ie, the bract of a flower -the leaflike layer beneath a flower-
2. 东西末端的尖锐部分 Also known as the sharp end of an object.
3. My personal favorite, 才能出众 or known as talent *rawr*.

And the best part...

4. In the example section, MY NAME (I kid you not), 慧颖, was given as an example but backwards. So, 颖慧. Which pretty much means the same thing (wisdom & all the above definitions). Don't believe me, check it out for yourself (click!).

UHM. 

Mind is blown.

And ALL this cause I wanted to put my Chinese name on my Capstone cover page.

I think I just flew to the stars and back.

Also, FIGHTING! to all those completing Capstone! 

Love,

慧颖. ♥

I LOST MY CLITORIS!

Tonight, I do this for the lady (a friend's friend) who lost her life to robbers back home. 

Tonight, I do for the women who are sexually abused because "they dress to sexy/promiscuous". Tonight, I do it for the women who only wear clothes that men tell them to. 

Tonight, we do it for women & children. 

Please join us in creating awareness against violence against women & human trafficking!

Have I Told You How Much I Love Roller Coasters?

Boy, what a week it has been!

To best describe this week:

To those of you who know what reference this is, you're probs rolling on your bellies (or not).

But yeah, it felt like the week has (actually the past 2 weeks have) given me the major stink eye. 

I have been so overwhelmed with so much emotion and the undecided future. But that is just part of the problem. There's everything else in between. Capstone is fine. I'm not SUPER stressed about it (which is a good thing, why should I stress myself out unnecessarily, right?) I think instead, my mother has taken over Stress-Duty and has been up my chin on Capstone. Uh, mom, calm down please? :) And then there are all the other things in between like classes: I missed a quiz (I'm so sad), math has been slowly driving me crazy, and music, I've so much to memorize and painting SO MUCH to complete. I had to pick one of the craziest pieces... Not to mention some of the goals I would like to achieve before graduation... They fall in the interpersonal realm and I'll be the first to admit in a while that this has seriously been the bricks on my shoulders...

And with that said, I must confess that I've shed so much tears. 

I cried over words exchanged

I cried over issues unrelated to me (well, sorta)

I cried over an email (oh dear, it was one scary email)

I cried at 50 Days

I cried so much I think the list is ludicrous.

But you know, I'm doing all I can to find something beautiful in every day. 

Even if I'm still crying, at least I have something to appreciate and I don't go to bed upset. 

xoxo,

Martha & Kim. ♥

PS- I LOVE ROLLER COASTERS. I laugh when I go on them. No idea how this started but it started when I was 19. And like roller coasters (as a metaphor of life), I take life like that, by laughing (as much as I can). Sometimes you cry, sometimes you laugh.  

Wanted.

WANTED:

1. A Malaysian or Singaporean who has spare time on their hands, and is willing to read stories and add Malaysian influences and offer criticism without being a complete buzz killer. AND can give quick and timely responses.

2. A printing company who can print my Capstone into a pretty book without burning an arduous hole in my bank account. 

xoxo, 
Kim ♥

PS- Red to support the LGBTQ community today. 
PPS- comment/email me if you're feeling generous and wanna help! :D

Laugh, laugh at me.

Since I don't have much time and I thought I'd update my blog a little... Here's something...

I'm writing capstone and this is part of a story I'm telling:

"But in our world, in our dreams, we’d have sweet, sweet dreams of being with the guy we liked. No, not celebrities who didn’t know our names. That’s just sad. These were boys we were very much into." 

Thinking about it, I think my life has gotten a lot sadder. Instead of dreaming of a relationship with someone I know, I'm doing it instead with the celebrities who don't know my name... Yes. My life has increased in sadness.

Oh yes, you may laugh now :) 

Hope this made your day.

xoxo,

Kim. ♥

I My Me Mine.

My school.

My ocean.

My school. 

My education.

My school.

My life.

Herbie. Hancock. Is the guest speaker for my graduation. How exciting!! I almost cried when I read it in the minutes from the Board of Trustees meeting that is presented to the school. I am in so much appreciation! I can't even...

Dear Mr Herbie Hancock,
THANK YOU. TERIMA KASIH. 谢谢您。Merci beaucoup! ありがとうございます！

I will continue striving till the very end!



Yours sincerely,
Kimberley. ♥